16 March 2012

I am...

...humbled by and grateful for the persistent rainbow across blue sky this morning. A clear sign of a new, magnificent day, following a harsh and stormy night.

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  1. ZacMarch 17, 2012 at 11:07 AM

    I have been interested to read all your reflections on things to be grateful for. It's curious that they don't include people, since for me that's the usual object of my feelings of gratitude. I don't feel especially grateful for sunshine or rainbows (although I really like both) -- perhaps because I just think of those things as background. Thye happen without any one's volition. But a kind word from a co-worker, or a shared cupcake, those are acts of kindness and they make me feel grateful. I do not believe in a personal God (a supreme being who thinks about me) and so there is not entity to whom I feel grateful for my life. Maybe I should. Maybe that is what God is for -- an outlet for amorphous gratitude.

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    1. meggynMarch 20, 2012 at 8:56 PM

      Thank you for posting your thoughts here, Zac. Hmmm. I find it interesting, this reflection you stated about my posts on gratitude: "It's curious that they don't include people..." when, I feel that my own thoughts/feelings of gratitude almost always are linked in some way or another to a specific person or people, even if expressed via "amorphous", intangible, abstract or non-human related interactions/concepts.

      While thinking about your comment here, I'm reminded that it's all about context. And, I am aware that I rarely provide much context (if any at all) in these posts, but it does definitely exist in my rambling brain.

      Specifically, in regards to this particular post, the "stormy night" I eluded to was not a reference to the weather that previous night, but due to a difficult conversation I'd just had with someone. I found myself in a muddled/challenging head space for the rest of that night, and even into the next morning.

      I got on my bike and starting pedaling myself to school, still totally absorbed in my thoughts and emotional reactions to the conversation from the night before.

      It wasn't until I randomly looked up at the sky while stopped at an intersection when, *bam* the rainbow smacked me right in the eyeballs. It reminded me to get out of my head, get out of the spinning emotional wheel I was stuck in, and recognize that surprises still *do* happen, and that everything is constantly changing. *We* are constantly changing. Our emotional states are constantly changing. Our relationships with each other, and the ways we relate to each other are constantly changing.

      In that moment, seeing that rainbow felt to me like a refreshing, cool breeze, blown into my mind and into my perspective of how I had been perceiving the conversation and person I'd had it with the night before.

      It was immensely relieving.

      *This* is what I am grateful for, and why I was grateful for that rainbow that day.

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